here, as i try to breathe

A Glimpse of the Eternal

Just now,
a sparrow lighted
on a pine bough
right outside
my bedroom window
and a puff
of a yellow pollen
flew away.

--Ted Kooser, Delights & Shadows

A poem shows me, in so little words, such pure, uncomplicated wonder. It tells me that despite all the questions, the uncertainties, there is still so much truth and beauty out there for us to see.

This is why I read poetry. And this is why I write poetry.

happy father's day

To my dad and my brother Jethro (who is also now a father). I am so blessed to have such good men in my life. I miss you guys.

And to all you super-fathers out there, Happy Father's Day.

{Photo by Tawel Sensei}

funny little frog

I just discovered this song (via red aprons & lunchboxes) and now I can't get it out of my head. I think its so, so cute. Listen to it here and tell me what you think:

"You're my guy and you don't even know it." Haha.

"you know you're gonna miss your plane"

Does this line seem vaguely familiar? Or is it just me, because I am such a movie geek? Anyways, for those who forgot, it's a line from Before Sunset, one of my absolute favorites.

Much to my surprise, the movie that I just saw tonight also had the exact ending line. Only this time, it wasn't Julie Delpy saying it but an equally beautiful (okay fine, HOT) French actor,
Melvil Poupaud. And yes, part of the film was also shot in Paris.

The movie is called Broken English. I will not spoil anyone by giving away the plot (you can read it
here if you want), but I must say that despite its rather cliched and disjointed narrative, I really liked it. Maybe it has to do with the talented Parker Posey, who was just the perfect actress to play the lead character Nora, or maybe it's because in some ways I can relate to Nora's story, but whatever it is compelled me to write something about it.

There was a scene in the movie that hits close to home. Nora, a 35 year-old single New Yorker came to visit her parents and one of the first questions that they asked her was "Are you seeing someone special lately?" I had to laugh because this is exactly the same question that I get all the time. And like Nora, everyone (including my own mom) is trying to set me up on a date. Okay, maybe not everyone because my closest friends know me well enough to know that I absolutely hate it, but you get the drift.

And so while I was watching Nora pop her anti-anxiety meds like there's no tommorrow, I started thinking about how society puts so much pressure on single women to be in a relationship that it actually takes away from their enjoyment of the entire singlehood experience altogether. I know of people who spend all their time and energy trying to find a boyfriend that they end up feeling sorry for themselves when they can't find what they're looking for or else they settle for the first person that showed interest in them and end up in a miserable relationship later. And that's really sad.

For me, if its meant to be, then it will happen. In the meantime, I will spend my time doing the things that I love to do and not worry about it. But try telling that to my mom or my aunt and they will simply look at you and then say "Yes...but you still need to find a boy." I heard this so many times that now when they tell me this I just roll my eyes and answer, "Ah, maybe the boy needs to find ME." Hee.

early bird

I was never a morning person but lately I have been waking up around 6 am and I'm really feeling the difference. I have more energy, by 9 o'clock I feel like I've already accomplished a lot, and I sleep much better at night. I'm sure it also has something to do with the fact that I'm exercising more now, whereas I've never exercised in my life before (um, does typing on a keyboard count as fingers exercise? :P), but whatever it is, I've never felt this kind of lightness before. And I love it. Reminds me of this poem by Mary Oliver, one of my faves:

* * *

Why I Wake Early

Hello, sun in my face.
Hello, you who make the morning
and spread over the fields
and into the faces of the tulips
and the nodding morning glories,
and into the windows of, even, the
miserable and the crotchety -

best preacher that ever was,
dear star, that just happens
to be where you are in the universe
to keep us from ever-darkness,
to ease us with warm touching,
to hold us in the great hands of light -
good morning, good morning, good morning.

Watch, now, how I start the day
in happiness, in kindness.

* * *

Work is still hectic. I still have a lot of loose ends to tie before the end of the school year. I still haven't figured out what I'll do for the summer. My finances are still a mess. I could go on and on. But it doesn't matter. I have my mornings. And for that I am truly grateful.

Hope you have a wonderful Sunday wherever you are

happy friday!

~Things That Made Me Happy Today ~

These pictures of the lovely
Zooey Deschanel makes me want to go to the nearest full-length mirror and sing/dance/pose to my heart's content. I love her sense of style and the fact that she seems very comfortable in her own skin. Oh, and that white blouse is too adorable! (Photos via Oh Happy Day)

Eating frozen yogurt (strawberry + pineapple) after an hour of super intense, thigh-shaking workout at The Bar Method.
Yogen Fruz is so good, check out their website to find the closest store near you. ;)

Longer days and lots and lots of light! Summer is just around the corner and it makes me oh-so-excited. Can't wait to take a road trip by the coast and explore the rest of Cali with my dear friends.

Anne Lammott's book in a crowded train on my way home. It's good to be reminded once again that writing "shitty first drafts" is perfectly ok. Now if only I can sit and bring myself to write that elusive first draft...

Shedding a tear or two while watching
this wonderful, wonderful movie. Ah, I've never been this touched by a film in a long time, truly one of the best ones this year and I wouldn't be surprised if Richard Jenkins is nominated for a Best Actor award for his amazing performance here.

* * *
How about you, what made you happy today?

late afternoon walk

I love, love, love my neighborhood.

ah, johnny

I don't have cable and I rarely watch t.v. but today must have been my lucky day because I just happened to be visiting my cousin who happened to be watching the MTV Movie Awards and guess who made an unexpected appearance to receive his Best Actor award-- Johnny Depp! *swoon*

It was such a surprise that even the rest of the stars jumped in their seat when he came out onstage. And could he be any hotter? His new clean-cut look really suits him. It feels like 21 Jump Street all over again. :)

Sorry about the gushing, its Sunday night and I'm trying to take my mind off anticipating another hectic work week...